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January 2nd, 2011
09:57 pm
Dear you,
I don't know if you still read this. If you do, I'm surprised. It's two days to your birthday; one that I probably won't be wishing you a happy birthday. Not personally anyway.
As much as I want to say I understand, I don't. I do understand your need for space, which I will respect from now til whenever you need. And I'm sorry for my messages. I've just been worried. No, not worried. I've been upset.
But in two days time, I won't say anything even though I really want to. So if you see this, Happy Birthday. If it can make you feel better, I hope that on the 4th, you forget about me. I genuinely hope that you'll be happy on that day.
Happy Birthday again.
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December 5th, 2010
09:01 pm
So I'm back at LJ. Same me, different mindset. Maybe.
Things have happened and perhaps for the worse. Won't lie that I can't really take this much more. So to some extent I'm glad you're gone for awhile because I really do need to clear my mind. Afterall things are slightly different now and I could use not talking for a change. It's been enjoyable. It really has. But I'm just too emotionally strained for this now. I really can't stand being hurt again.
Emotions are funny; how I can love you and hate you at the same time.
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May 29th, 2010
04:08 pm
Well this LJ thing just isn't really working out. NS is taking up too much of my time and not to mention my extraordinary writing capabilities which are now all but diminished. The best situation of course, would be to continue writing to improve my deteriorating writing, and not to mention spelling ability. (I already used spell check about 3 times for the above paragraph. Damn, now that's 4)
But, considering that LJ has been such a resounding failure, I shall slay my blog. I mean, who still comes here? Even I don't; until now of course. So to all who see this, including the ant on my screen now and the government who's ever watching, goodbye LJ. It has not been fun.
Oh but do keep coming back cause IF I change my blog URL, I'll probably use this. Or my MSN or Facebook. Hmmm... So LJ is really redundant.
Okay then. Bye LJ. Go sap other people of their time
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April 18th, 2010
08:20 pm
First, I have a few question about UCAS that I hope anyone can answer. Can I apply using A level results for 2011 application for deferred entry in 2012? If I can (which I hope I can or I'm screwed), when is UCAS 2011 gonna open?
Second, I'm going into camp tomorrow. Not sure what's gonna happen but wish me luck people!
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April 17th, 2010
08:11 am
I've been enjoying myself way too much this week. Going out with friends, movie marathons, dinners, slacking at home and then I got posted to armour.
Shit man.
Few points of concern:
1) The camp is at Lim Chu Kang
Now that wouldn't be too big a problem. I mean, yes it's about 1 hour away from my house but the thing is that the camp is wayyyy inside. It's the ulu of the ulus.
2) Washing tank
According to legend and folklore, the tank washing can take hours. Many, many hours. And they're using a high-powered jet and it still takes hours. And oh, the Leopard tank is 3 times bigger, so that means 3 times more to wash.
And actually that's about it. Main thing is I don't really wanna go back into camp after a week out. So I better prep myself mentally for what is to come. To all those in OCS and SISPEC, all the best to you guys especially those in OCS Delta and SISPEC Charlie; may you guys still be in one piece after the first week.
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April 12th, 2010
11:16 pm
Hmm well, my interviews didn't go so well today. Actually I thought only MFA didn't go well but DMS was fine. I still haven't heard from MFA but I just got rejected by DMS. So screw it. I don't need a scholarship to succeed in life. I mean, life isn't determined by what scholarship or what paper qualification I have. I don't need the government's help. I have God, I have my family, I have my friends, and I have me. That's all I need.
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10:57 am
I realise my last post was before enlistment, and here I am now enjoying my block leave. It's been a short 9 weeks really. All enlistees look at BMT and think to themselves "How am I going to get through these 9 weeks?" But I've done it. My section mates have done it. In all honesty, I enjoyed BMT. Yes I'm happy to POP and get my ass out of that island, but I'll miss my section for all the shit we went through together and all the trash we talk about. I'm gonna miss my commanders even though they did some stuff to us.
But it's time to move on. I'll enjoy what's left of my block leave, which is till this Sunday. Then I'll know my posting, and this I leave to God. Sispec, unit, whatever. I've already learnt to accept what is to come and I will accept what I'll be getting on the 16th.
Of course there's the issue of interviews, of which I'm already done with one about 2 hours ago. And I have another in about 4 hours. All this I leave to God as well. I've learnt to rely on God's grace during BMT and He has just been so good to me. Too many instances to describe but I felt His presence even when I'm going through shit. So I trust Him for what is to come. After all, studies and scholarships don't make or break me, and it'll all come in His time.
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February 3rd, 2010
07:13 pm
I know I'll miss a lot of people while I'm inside. First up though, yesterday was really awesome. Great time with my class yet again and I think the last time we'll be meeting up from now till the release of the A level results. Hmmm. I do wonder if we can keep meeting like this. I mean, after the army there will be Uni and people will be scattered all over; some overseas and well, all will be busy with this and that. Haha oh well. Love you guys.
So. I'm nervous. Extremely nervous. I really don't know what to expect tomorrow. Well actually I know tomorrow will be fine but it's what's gonna happen after that that I'm worried about. Tomorrow's gonna be okay cause all the parents will be there so definitely no tekaning and all that but Friday? I don't know about that... But I'm worried. New environment, physical and mental stress, regimentation. I really hope and pray I can survive that. I mean, I have to anyway. On the bright side I'll probably lose weight?
So... I'll be gone for about 10 days. And till then, pray for me? I'll do a before and after pic on facebook soon.
Bye.
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February 1st, 2010
06:05 pm
Some things are just lacking and I want to change that. I see what people have and I want it, I really want it bad. But I can't sit here and wait for it to come to me, cause I have to go out there and make things happen.
So here goes.
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January 30th, 2010
05:01 pm
Well I just got back from Club Med Bintan about 2 days ago and that was real awesome. Good food, time with friends and I got a tan haha. But I'm just really bugged out about enlistment which is this Thursday. Heard a lot from people, both good and bad and while I do want to take on a positive attitude I'm just really worried. Not so much about the physical aspect but more of being away from family, no freedom and all that.
Well but I have to go through with it so here's hoping I'll be okay. Pray for me
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